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Guest blogged by Anuj on May 16, 2008.

Sitting here wasted and wounded
At this old piano
Trying hard to capture
The moment this morning I don’t know
‘Cause a bottle of vodka
Is still lodged in my head
And some blond gave me nightmares
I think that she’s still in my bed
As I dream about movies
They won’t make of me when I’m dead

With an ironclad fist I wake up and
French kiss the morning
While some marching band keeps
It’s own beat in my head
While we’re talking
About all of the things that I long to believe
About love, the truth and
What you mean to me
And the truth is baby you’re all that I need

I wanna lay you down in a bed of roses
For tonight I’ll sleep on a bed of nails
I wanna be just as close as your Holy Ghost is
And lay you down on bed of roses

Well I’m so far away
That each step that I take is on my way home
A king’s ransom in dimes I’d give each night
Just to see through this payphone
Still I run out of time
Or it’s hard to get through
Till the bird on the wire flies me back to you
I’ll just close my eyes and whisper
Baby blind love is true

I wanna lay you down in a bed of roses
For tonight I’ll sleep on a bed of nails
I wanna be just as close as your Holy Ghost is
And lay you down on bed of roses

Well this hotel bar’s hangover whiskey’s gone dry
The barkeeper’s wig’s crooked
And she’s giving me the eye
I might have said yeah
But I laughed so hard I think I died

Now as you close your eyes
Know I’ll be thinking about you
While my mistress she calls me
To stand in her spotlight again
Tonight I won’t be alone
But you know that don’t
Mean I’m not lonely I’ve got nothing to prove
For it’s you that I’d die to defend

I wanna lay you down in a bed of roses
For tonight I’ll sleep on a bed of nails
I wanna be just as close as your Holy Ghost is
And lay you down on bed of roses

I wanna lay you down in a bed of roses
For tonight I’ll sleep on a bed of nails
I wanna be just as close as your Holy Ghost is
And lay you down on bed of roses

To certain hypocrites,
There I tried to be “normal”. Happy now? Plus this was short and you don’t need an IQ above 18 to understand it.

Course Correction

I wish that my rejection letters turn out to be April Fools’ jokes, but that isn’t likely. I didn’t get through in the colleges I wanted, and in some of the lower tier ones where I did have a chance they’re unviable for me because of the amount of financial aid they’re giving. Recession in the US certainly seems to have hit their financial aid funds hard forcing them to choose students who need lesser aid. I don’t see my application per se lacking much with perfect scores in SAT Subject Tests, near perfect in TOEFL, decent marks in Reasoning, and an extensive extra-curricular record.

Applying to universities in UK wasn’t something which I was pursuing actively – until now. That’s next on the cards – dispatching my applications through UCAS (although there’s still a lot of time). I’m optimistic about NTU too since I’ve opted for non-subsidised tuition fee this time.

I’m also giving a few Indian entrance exams, so projects such as Gyaan.in will be on hold for the next few months (or at least until something concrete works out). I remain committed to the Gyaan.in project but I also have to prioritise certain things right now. Expect lesser blog posts and tweets.